floating in the sea

while writing a letter to someone close, this emotional part just flowed out :)

There are only so many things in life that are under control,

and i don't want to regret not having done some things in future.

I learn from others, but at times you have this feeling that you are not like the others,

and may be you can pull this through.

This life is fleeting and happiness is so temporary.

I feel a certain disconnect from everything at times,

and a overwhelming connection with everything at others.

And it is possibly all this fuzziness that makes it all so worth it,

that makes life interesting, where surprises happen everyday,

And you are left yourself floating in the sea,

because the waves never take you anywhere,

they just come and go, you grow rougher, stronger,

better at understanding how to encounter the waves.

I do feel its much better than anchoring yourself to the seabed,

as that would only make it more difficult to float freely in the sea.