The reflective mind

"Our mind is probably like a container with a coating of reflective material (a concave mirror). The goal of thought evolution (or of gaining knowledge) would then be to make this container from a closed one (which traps light inside it) to an open faced one, and to make the surface more reflective.

The more flatter the surface, the further away is the focal point, more is the amount of light/knowledge you can gain, more is the amount of knowledge you can reflect and further ahead in the universal space is the focal point of you thought. Eventually there will come a point when your mind become a flat mirror with 100% reflectivity, and the focal point goes to infinity. Then you become a true mirror, unattached, non judgmental and pure."

This above thought has its own flaw, like what happens to storage for future reference, and what happens to thought interactions when everything is reflected straight on ... i don't have answers, but nevertheless this does seems like an interesting thought.

Rhythm Creatures

We are rhythm creatures ... 

external music sometimes resonates with our internal rhythm and creates excitation or pacification ..

giving dream like characteristics to real otherwise mundane moments ...

Inception review

“I specialize in a very special kind of security. Sub conscious security”.

I heard this line in one of the trailers and it ensured that I was going to watch Inception. And the trailers also raised my expectations a notch.

 I am huge Matrix fan. And I expected Inception to go a step further in wowing me. But I was disappointed on that front. Don’t get me wrong, ‘Inception’ is a spectacular movie, definitely worth watching at least once. But somewhere it lacked the intensity, characterization and the ‘new’ element of the Matrix. But to Inception’s credit it was more understandable by the larger set of people than the first part of Matrix. And i absolutely loved the idea of doing an Inception, the idea that you could change the future if you plant a different idea.

The movie flows in a pace that ensures that the audience is first given time to understand the basic premises, the concept of dreams and then increase the pace to take the audience on a ride through a real inception, or the planting of an idea into another person's mind. And the technique is summarized well when Leonardo says “We bring subjects into dreams and then they fill it with their secrets”.

Good movies are defined by the discussions that follow them. Christopher Nolan made sure he ends ‘Inception’ with a scene to spark these discussions. Leonardo DiCaprio’s totem revolving unwaveringly till the last second when it just shows a sign of a slight wobble, as the movie ends, ensured the audience were in a state of some confusion as to whether or not diCaprio was still in a dream world. 

There were some really cool concepts like, if you go a level deeper into dream levels then the time span increases, 1 minute at level 1 could be years in level 4. Or the concept of ‘limbo’, where you get lost in a dream, or the concept of the 'kick' that needs to be synchronized so that you don’t get lost in one of the levels of a dream.

 If nothing else, this movie will surely give you a better insight into your world of dreams, and at-least for a few days after the movie you will be talking about the level of dreams. The movie was awesome in its technical detailing but where I think it wasn’t impactful, was in its characters. The characters probably didn’t connect with the audience at any deep level. It was close knit beautiful script which could have been awesome had the casting been better and acting been slightly more intense and had the relationships between people been better explored.

Realizing realization

"Each should discover the truth by themselves. " and this discovery can be painful for some and joyful for other... but nevertheless an important one and you are lucky if you find someone to guide you through it.

Here i am jotting down some of my view of life .. right or wrong .. but my sense of things till now, of what i have realized.

I am ready to accept things and believe in GOD, but then there is no discussion. To me the joy comes from integrating the different theories that exist and reaching the same conclusion is different forms. Like some people like things to be explained scientifically, lets help the form the scientific or mathematical model which explains GOD, maybe not call it god (how does the name matter what matters is the understanding), or there are other who see GOD in idols, fine, lets help then understand the meaning of all the stories ever written (like the epics) cause they can understand stories more than concepts. The point i am trying to make is that may be there is one reality, but that one reality can be represented in multiple ways. And if we are able to help each find that reality in HIS form representation (which could include his religion, his thought process and his level of understanding), then probably we have helped the world reach a state of greater stability and joy.

At present (when i am still working on the integration theories) i believe in GOD but not as the creator but instead as the collective consciousness or the whole .. as the dot from where it all began to the dot it will all end in ... i am not independent of this whole .. because i am as much a part of this whole as is anybody else ... and this whole is shaping me all the time . I am just one of the nodes of a recursive pattern, a fractal. Like a river, which has tributaries and the tributaries then again have tributaries and so on, or like the tree that have branches and the branches again have branches. The whole looks exactly like the part, behaves exactly like the part and hence the part in itself is a whole.

The best thing about our being is that we can consciously choose the PLAY we want to be part of, and each PLAY that is being played (at a lots of level) has the potential to tell the whole story or explain the whole creation.

The Gandhi we love, the Gandhi we hate

I was recently reading an article about Gandhi (http://www.deeshaa.org/2010/01/22/bose-gandhi-ghadar-and-indias-independence/) which got me thinking as to what has gone wrong with the phenomena of Gandhi. Strangely though i agreed with a lot of things that people say about Gandhi, like him being wily, i could not find myself  disliking him.

Gandhi's role, i agree, has been overplayed at a lot of places at the expense of a lot of other people like Bose.

But taking down Gandhi because the other freedom fighters have not been given there dues, is like taking down Cricket, because Hockey is not famous. Why cant we focus on rebuilding Hockey. Similarly why cant we focus on understanding and spreading the word around about other leaders rather than trying to bring down Gandhi.

According to me Gandhi is idolized because he was 'phenomena'. He wasn't perfect but he was unique, innovative and experimental in his approach. And all experiments don't succeed, but the most unique ones do get famous. He found in 'non violence' an ideology that could empower the weakest of the weak. An ideology that could actually make the supressed feel 'greater' than the oppressor, in moral terms. Going by the brick for brick philosophy according to him just ended up creating more demons and more wars in the world.

Gandhi's was a perspective that influenced a lot of people not just in India but the world over. He re-looked at the way battles can be fought. He brought to popular notice concepts that were unheard in the times of the world wars. Not for no reason have people like MLK and Einstein been influenced  by Gandhi's philosophy.

His approach towards Bose, as i think of it, was like that of a conservative father whose son wanted to make a career in sports. Now the disagreement of the father doesn't stem for his disliking of his son but from the fact that he hasn't seen or doesn't believe that sports have any future. Now this scenario doesn't make the son or the father wrong, 'cause the father wants him to have a safe future while the son sees his passion and success in sports. It just different perspectives.

The carefully created image that we often talk about is the only Gandhi we know, and probably need to care about, because that 'image' was what brought the country together in many ways. Even Steve Jobs is ego maniacal, but that doesn't stop us from praising him for the paradigm-shift he has brought about in the tech industry.

Gandhi surely was not without his issues, but like it or not he was the focal point which had the charisma to create a truly national movement which brought everyone into its fold, women and children included. As i see it Gandhi, may be was more pro-peace than pro-independence.

Making each individual believe that in him or her is the strength and the weapon to fight an empire, is no easy task. He was what people created of him. Even Sachin Tendulkar has a carefully crafted public image. He has been part of many individual valiant efforts in games that India lost. But still we love him, cause he was our first super hero. Similarly Gandhi was the first out of the world 'phenomena' that could speak and argue with the British in their language sitting across a table while also being able to empathize with a harijan and think about his upliftment. On a side-note, one of his most important contributions to India (though surely there were people before him that had done this) was trying to break down the rigid walls of caste-ism in India.

Today we can look back at history and say that many of the decisions he made were wrong and that he is overhyped. But that does not take away from the man that he was.
We probably need to look at him as a scientist who was experimenting in a new philosophy, trying to create a formula for peace, or as an ordinary human finding his mojo in giving hope to millions of people through his philosophy, aura and oratory or if may be as a pink floydish musician who could play awesome experimental rock which mesmerized the masses but didn't quite mean much to the death metal fans.

fragility of existence

Yesterday i lost a friend.

Some incidents are so beyond words. Incidents that make you reconsider how you are living your own life, and are you really doing the things that you should be doing.

The news of the accident came from another friend over gtalk.

Life. We think we are in control, but there is so much beyond control. How else can someone die, falling from the top of Nandi Hills that too not riding, but probably while taking photographs!

So much for the fragility of our existence.

Vimal was one of thee most jovial guys in our batch. I have never seen him sad. Always cracking jokes and having fun. Always ready for an adventure or two. Always there to help. Back in the old times, I remember he was so happy when he led our batch to winning the Manthan trophy. And he was always great with girls. I still remember his friend from NERIST, back in our second or third year in college, or all the stories that i heard about his exploits from 'pappa' or 'loco' while the three lived together in Indira Nagar.

I'll always remember him for his characteristic, 'aur bhaeei godddddh'. We had been to the ISB interviews together, shared a lot of input with each other while writing our applications. And we both got rejected for some weird reasons, so we got to spend quite a while bitching about MBA applications in general.

It pains, to having to write in this way about someone who was just about to blossom. The wings were almost grown, the real flight was about to happen. But seems the universe had some other plans for him and his family.

Last night I could not sleep. I can't even imagine what his family must be going through. I can only wish that his family and close friends gets the strength to get over this huge tragedy and may his soul rest in the most heavenly of abodes in peace.

Palindrome Day

'i like it that your name is a palindrome..nitin'.

These words just came back while reading a tweet from Deepak Chopra. He says that today is the Palindrome Day and his favorite one is 'do geese see god'. Well it seems there is a day for that (in lines of the iphone campaign, there is an app for that).

As for the quote above that was Kym. Kym who? Well someone from somewhere that i met for sometime while i was drinking something in the middle of some super cool place. So much for details :)

floating in the sea

while writing a letter to someone close, this emotional part just flowed out :)

There are only so many things in life that are under control,

and i don't want to regret not having done some things in future.

I learn from others, but at times you have this feeling that you are not like the others,

and may be you can pull this through.

This life is fleeting and happiness is so temporary.

I feel a certain disconnect from everything at times,

and a overwhelming connection with everything at others.

And it is possibly all this fuzziness that makes it all so worth it,

that makes life interesting, where surprises happen everyday,

And you are left yourself floating in the sea,

because the waves never take you anywhere,

they just come and go, you grow rougher, stronger,

better at understanding how to encounter the waves.

I do feel its much better than anchoring yourself to the seabed,

as that would only make it more difficult to float freely in the sea.